What's the deal with the bunny and his eggs?:
Many people ask,including myself,WTF does eggs and bunnies have to do with the resurrection of Jesus Christ?Well here is one MYTH:The tradition of Easter was actually of Pagan descent,surprise,surprise!Yet another custom stolen by Christianity,along with Halloween! Yes I know,"true christians" don't allow thier kids to trick or treat,instead they go to church,play some games and get a grab bag full of oranges and other crap.Which to me is pretty lame.If you're gonna celebrate a tradition that did not come from your religion then atleast go all the way,don't half-ass it and try to make it your own..The Pagans believed that hallow's eve was the only night that demons could walk freely with us so they wore masks to hide their identity.They carved faces into pumpkins to try to scare the demons away.They would mingle,with other pagans only I'm sure since anyone that wasn't wanted to burn them at the stake,lol,and exchange goodies such as freshly baked bread,cookies,etc.That makes sense,if I thought demons were roaming freely I'd want some comfort food to.So I guess that's where trick or treating comes from. Now let me clarify,I have nothing against christians(love you liza!),just the background of christianity.My only beef with it is the part where they killed anyone believed to be a witch ,even if they knew it wasn't true and that people were realizing,"hey if i say that bitch i hate is a witch,they'll kill her!"Christianity isn't as violent now a days,instead they have the Bill O'Reilly's and George W's to do their dirty work.These two guys are trying to tell us what's "christian" and moral.One being an egotistical pervert and the other is a complete moron who was snorting coke off a hookers tit not more then 10 yrs ago!That is my major beef with it all,,hypocrits.They smile in church or on camera for us..telling us what WE are doing wrong,all the while knowing they are no better,and some quite worse then us!But anyway,getting waayyy off subject here!

Around the 8th century, an English scholar named St.Bede,proposed this theory.
The term Easter comes from "Eastre," the Goddess of mythology signifying spring and fertility,whose festival,in Pagan times,was celebrated on the day of the vernal equinox.
Christian churches in the west celebrate on the 1st Sunday following the full moon that occurs on or following the spring equinox-thus explaining why every year around mid-march we're all thinking,"when the fuck is Easter this year?"O.k.,so that explains the name and the day chosen for celebration.Now for the bunny and his eggs.

In the Pagan religion the rabbit is a symbol of fertility,along with the egg(for obvious reasons)
They painted the eggs bright colors to represent the sun and spring,a time of re-birth.Just like how Jesus was reborn(makin some sense now?).So to make their traditon more festive,they would play games with the colorful eggs or give them as gifts.Now I know you're probably thinking,why would pagans celebrate the resurrection of jesus since they didnt believe in him,well they didn't.They were celebrating spring,and since even christians see the connection between spring and re-birth I guess they thought it made sense to them.They have this tendency to take from other religions and put the christian stamp on it,lol.So that my friends is the best explaination I've come across on what seems like a completely rediculous tradition.I now have a little more respect for it,but I still hate how places like Wal-mart make a bagillion $ every year off of it,just like every other holiday!Our kids get a basket usually containing some kind of crappy toy and some candy,along with that wonderful fake grass that sticks to EVERYTHING!They play with their toy for the whole day that it remains in tact,eat thier candy and never really know the origin of Easter.So this yr maybe some of you will not only take them to church on easter sunday but can maybe also give them some history on why because Jesus died they get an easter basket from a bunny,lol.

Hope this has clarified a few things for some of you,although let me say again this is just a MYTH, I never state my beliefs as fact.But hey,makes sense to me!

HAPPY EASTER!!!

I wish this poem were pixie dust to throw into your eyes.
And make you see the lovliness beneath my sad disguise.
I would take you in my arms,and weave a magic spell,
that i could utter anytime, to make you love me well.
But alas my simple are words are like the summer rain,
that drums on hills and fields and hearts-then vanishes again.
And though my love might make you bloom,you turn with fragile grace,
to gaze with aching lonliness at someone elses face.
We lust for what we cannot have.
A long unbroken chain,of lovers who remain unloved,and loved who love in vain.
While I'm near mad with wanting you,as trees must have the sun.
You cannot help but find a love,who loves another one.

Well,my test results came back today.The nurse called and said the dr wants me to come in tomorrow to go over them.I asked if that was routine and she got a real serious tone and said ,no mam,it's not,when the dr wants someone to come in it usually means something pretty serious.The only thing she tested for was cervical cancer so there's a good chance that's what it is.I'm terrified.My appt is at 1:30 so i'll try to post tomorrow and let everyone know what she said.Anyone reading this please send good vibes my way.

Sorry i haven't been posting lately.Been in kinda a funk.I can feel myself slipping into a depression.I'm not going to graduate from school because i had to miss 2 months when i got my kids back in october,had no child care.So there's no confusion,,i never lost custody,just let my sister keep them while i went to school until she started her normal bullshit like not being there when it was my day to pick them up so i just took them back.Kinda regret it now cause it fucked up everything.Also my health hasn't been so great lately.I already have lupus,degenerative disc disease(rotting discs in back..big owie!),therefore i must take large doses of very strong pain meds every day just to keep up with my kids cause without it i can barely walk,so yea i'm a pillhead.Anyone who's been on the shit for years like me would be to!I hate being a slave to chemicals like that.Like i have to plan my life around how many pills i have left.I know alot of dumbasses reading this are thinking,why don't you just quit or go to rehab.Well for you dumb fucks out there,i would do that if i was taking the shit for kicks but you see i have a couple of medical problems that will never get better ,quitting or rehab won't make them go away right? Next theory please....Also i have a completly fucked liver due to a ruptured gall bladder when i was 14 and being a dumb teenager and drinking like a fish.So it's about 50% right now,it will heal slowly in time though.The latest problem is for the past month or so i've been getting these dizzy spells,like all the sudden i'll feel weak,start sweating,feel sick and pass out sometimes.I told my doctor about these symptoms which include other things like female problems that i'm sure any guys reading this will appreciate me leaving out,lol..anyway,,,she said it sounded like possibly cervical cancer.I go for tests tomorrow.I know i sound like i'm having a little pity party over here but whatever ,maybe i am ,it's my blog anyway.fuck it.